My Life Story Index
Architecture
This section maps the gravitational field created by my father's absence — the environmental volatility of my childhood, the somatic tracking required to survive it, and the new celestial bodies I began orbiting to fill the void he left. It establishes how a boy's hunger for a father he couldn't have became the hidden force behind every system he would spend the next two decades constructing.
Collapse
This section documents the slow orbital decay of the systems built to soothe my father hunger. It chronicles the precise moments where the fierce intimacy of becoming a father myself, the black hole that was my biological father's death, and the inevitable absorption of my faith into that singularity.
Embodiment
This section begins where the orbit ends — unanchored, weightless, and adrift in the silence of open space. It tracks the immediate somatic toll of that weightlessness, the descent toward the event horizon of the singularity, and the slow discovery that meaning cannot be inherited or constructed from the outside — it has to be generated from within. This is what it looks like to begin producing your own gravity.